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Many people contact Fight the New Drug to share their personal stories about how porn has affected their life or the life of a loved one. We consider these personal accounts very valuable because, while the science and research is powerful within its own right, personal accounts from real people seem to really hit home about the damage that pornography does to real lives.
We received this real experience from a Fighter who found hope for recovery for her boyfriend through our friends at Fortify. While she chose to stay and fight for her relationship, we acknowledge that might not be the best decision for others in her same situation, especially for partners who are unwilling to give up porn. Each relationship is unique. This is what worked for this couple.
I am the girlfriend of a boy who had a struggle with porn and broke it through Fortify. I have felt a pressing need to write about my experience on the other side of the addiction for other partners who are going through it.
We hadn’t even been dating for five months when he told me he’d struggled with porn for almost eight years. It took him 30 minutes just to get those words out of his mouth. This was a boy that I had been crazy about for a little less than a year. A boy I was terrified wouldn’t date me because I had been with other people before him. This was the boy who, just three nights before, I confessed my deepest love for.
This boy just told me that he was addicted to porn and didn’t know how to stop.
The first thing that came out of my mouth was, “I love you.” It just felt right. I still loved him, and I would love him through it. Love is a commitment to me and much more than a word. We talked for a while after that fact. I was so in shock that my only intention was to assure him that I was there for him.
Looking for solutions
After I got back to my room, I immediately started to look for ways to help him through it because I knew nothing about struggling with porn, and I wanted to be supportive. There was another guy on my campus who always wore a “Porn Kills Love” shirt. I looked up that slogan and discovered Fight the New Drug. From there I found Fortify and sent my boyfriend the link. He applied right away.
The next day was terrible. The denial of the severity from the night before hit me like a freight train. We had been dating for five months then; before that, we talked for over a month. This was something that was still going on. I did not have a porn performer’s body, so my first thought was that I wasn’t good enough for him. I was just somebody who was “there.” This is an entirely normal thought to have, I realized. It’s only natural to think that way at first. I want to scream it until I am blue in the face that this is not the truth—more about that a little later though.
The next step that I took was to Google what I should do as the girlfriend of someone struggling with porn. Everything I read said I should break up with him since we were not married. This wasn’t good enough for me. I fell in love with the man, not his addiction. He was supposed to be my happy ending. So I didn’t break up with him. But I did feel like I was suffocating for a long time.
I used to struggle with an eating disorder, and comparing myself to a girl on the screen did not help that at all. Sharing with others felt challenging since my boyfriend had requested that I keep it between us. I also felt I could not speak to him about it because it made me so sad and worthless when I brought it up.
We agreed, though: we would only talk about his progress and the Fortify platform. He would tell me about the activities that he was assigned for the day, and he would tell me that he was slipping up less and less. His progress was becoming more and more apparent. As for having someone to talk to, I did slip up and tell one of my closest friends because I trusted her guidance.
Life on the other side of the struggle
Remember what I said earlier about not feeling like you’re good enough if your partner struggles with porn? This is not true. You are good enough, but an addiction or compulsion is a mental issue. My boyfriend had this problem long before he even met me. He came to me because he knew that I would help him find a way to stop. He came to me about this because he knew that I was worth so much more than his struggle to break from something he knew was harmful and fake.
With outside help and Fortify, my boyfriend broke free in less than a month. On September 1st, he told me about his struggle, but by October 1st, he had finished watching porn and hadn’t had a slip-up since.
Here is my advice to any girlfriend or boyfriend, for that matter, of anyone who struggles with a porn addiction:
• You are good enough for them. This addiction has nothing to do with you, as it probably stemmed long before you were in his/her life.
• Find somebody that you trust to talk about this with. Their encouragement and guidance is something desperately needed.
• Have an open dialogue about his/her progress with Fortify. Trust me, it helps.
• Adding on to that, what helped me understand is to read the articles Fight the New Drug posts.
• Be understanding, but make sure you care for your feelings, too. If your partner is not getting anything out of Fortify and refuses to want to change, then it may be time to let them out of your life. You deserve the best.
Porn can kill love, but love doesn’t have to be permanently dead. There is hope for everybody. It’s a process, but anything is possible.
–K.
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Get Help – For Partners
If your partner is struggling with porn, you are not alone—know that there is hope, and there is help. As you navigate this difficult situation, there are supportive communities and resources available to you. Below is a non-exhaustive list of several resources for those experiencing hurt because of their partner’s porn consumption. Note that this isn’t a complete resource list.
Disclaimer: For those who may find themselves involved in this sensitive situation, their responses can differ. This is why resources need to fit the specific needs of whoever is seeking them. Some of these resources are gender-specific, others are religiously-affiliated, others use a variety of approaches. Fight the New Drug is a non-religious and non-legislative awareness and education organization hoping to provide access to resources that are helpful to those who need support. Including this list of recommendations does not constitute an endorsement by Fight the New Drug.
Your Support Matters Now More Than Ever
Most kids today are exposed to porn by the age of 12. By the time they’re teenagers, 75% of boys and 70% of girls have already viewed itRobb, M.B., & Mann, S. (2023). Teens and pornography. San Francisco, CA: Common Sense.Copy —often before they’ve had a single healthy conversation about it.
Even more concerning: over half of boys and nearly 40% of girls believe porn is a realistic depiction of sexMartellozzo, E., Monaghan, A., Adler, J. R., Davidson, J., Leyva, R., & Horvath, M. A. H. (2016). “I wasn’t sure it was normal to watch it”: A quantitative and qualitative examination of the impact of online pornography on the values, attitudes, beliefs and behaviours of children and young people. Middlesex University, NSPCC, & Office of the Children’s Commissioner.Copy . And among teens who have seen porn, more than 79% of teens use it to learn how to have sexRobb, M.B., & Mann, S. (2023). Teens and pornography. San Francisco, CA: Common Sense.Copy . That means millions of young people are getting sex ed from violent, degrading content, which becomes their baseline understanding of intimacy. Out of the most popular porn, 33%-88% of videos contain physical aggression and nonconsensual violence-related themesFritz, N., Malic, V., Paul, B., & Zhou, Y. (2020). A descriptive analysis of the types, targets, and relative frequency of aggression in mainstream pornography. Archives of Sexual Behavior, 49(8), 3041-3053. doi:10.1007/s10508-020-01773-0Copy Bridges et al., 2010, “Aggression and Sexual Behavior in Best-Selling Pornography Videos: A Content Analysis,” Violence Against Women.Copy .
From increasing rates of loneliness, depression, and self-doubt, to distorted views of sex, reduced relationship satisfaction, and riskier sexual behavior among teens, porn is impacting individuals, relationships, and society worldwideFight the New Drug. (2024, May). Get the Facts (Series of web articles). Fight the New Drug.Copy .
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